This week was dichotomous. Wow – look at me and my big words. On the one hand, I was focused on accomplishing things. I finished a lot at work each day, my roommate and I started our shared calendar and began planning events for February, I finally ordered pictures from my summer roadtrip to cover my bare bedroom walls and I am almost done updating my stock tracking spreadsheet that will make it a lot easier to maintain. I also met my goal for working out.
On the other hand, I ate out for lunch yesterday, bought a muffin and coffee on Monday and spent too much drinking last night. Win some – lose some, eh? Overall, I’m pleased with my 2008 resolutions so far. I feel like I’ve been pretty focused on getting stuff done and wasting less time.
The weather is definitely cramping my style. I’ve been a little down lately. It’s been over a month since I’ve had any action! I miss DC, but, as expected, that is pretty much going nowhere. I sent him an e-mail earlier this week and then a text message Thursday asking him if he was going to be in DC soon. He didn’t reply to either, which left me feeling sad. I’ve had 6 or 7 first dates in the three months since NK broke up with me, which is great, right? But, none has produced a potential connection or spark like him.
This situation left me feeling lonely and wondering if I’ll meet someone who I click with anytime soon. I’ll have to do a better job of putting myself out there for that to happen, as my roommate would say. She and I went to a mutual friends birthday party Thursday. It was a small, quiet crowd before the birthday boy arrived and I didn’t know anyone, so we sat by ourselves and waited. If I hadn’t been in such a depressed mood I would have introduced myself to the other group. I know I left a bad first impression when we all did meet. And, of course, the one guy I was attracted to who seemed like a really decent guy has a partner. Argh! I hate being reminded that a lot of the good ones are taken.
OK – enough of today’s pity party. I went out with two of my straight girlfriends last night and had fun. They’re great girls who cheer me up.
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